Life, a womb scent fraught with death. Or life. It’s just a seam on either side the same. Both sleep they steal. The only respite’s tears
you try to weave the mind spark to fill what’s gone, to wring a passable texture there but, no Give up. It’s closed, she says with her small hands. Her small cheek settles against mine.
The world just isn’t the same because some people are never really gone And, death, like child, does grow and need you less. The hues we carry on our backs embolden our descent as we become much more of who we really are.
There’s a square box in my chest. With Something in it. (Life’s elastic, now I’m sure). Your hands. Their hands. My hands. Love
Flows from the space and is decidedly blue. I liked to be in all the rooms of my house then. My house alone. In that box
Only you, me and the box know. I don’t know how to say what’s in there. Only it’s a room arranged in a certain way. My
Inside steadies with hands and stands on Legs there. Dark tall boxes adorn and I can’t see the shorter ones across. It’s too
Crowded. The room’s too small. Maybe I Don’t fit there anymore. But you’re still There and I can’t piece it all together. I
Can’t think of you alive anymore when I’m in the closet and the bathroom. You also were the taker of the blind white
And my twisted scenes. I’m saving it here in this box an incongruous part of us in case some day I might find the other
Pieces and make it all fit.
The edge of a hole is a dreadful angle.
Take the time edge of night, the precipice of mind death. Definitely a circle. The recurring holes of waking and sleeping have a dripping crawling texture on the inside of my skull. Human life encased in a shell of naturally clustered holes risks everything. For what? Makes the matter in between the holes erratic, thin, grotesquely accidental.
How to patch up such a cratered existence; not just its surface but deeper. All the way down to the bottom. Cauterize it. How to engineer the worming tunnels to clean and disinfect ….. If the matter would all stay fixed and malleable that’s all I can fit but a nothing starts with an edge I cannot accept.
Bottomless circles have a way of swallowing up order.